Being Bipolar

I have never heard anyone admit this, so I think it is important that it be said. As a person who has bipolar disorder, I tend to displace a lot of my anger on the ones I love the most. I would be willing to bet that many others like me do the exact same thing.

Most of my emotions end up being displayed as anger. I cannot deal with sadness, worry or stress so it all manifests itself as anger. Unfortunately, the ones I am closest to usually bear the brunt of this anger. Why? Because they will take it. Isn’t that terrible? I will hurt the people who care about me because I know they will tolerate it.

I try really hard not to do this but I just cannot stop myself. When things aren’t going well, I get frustrated and it builds up until I have a meltdown. I have no other way to rid myself of these emotions but to lash out at those around me.

I know that I am hurting the people who love me and I don’t like it at all. I try to restrain myself but it is of no use. This has been my biggest problem and it is one that I have not yet solved. I would love to have a solution for this and I am very interested in knowing how others deal with it.